I think it’s easier to not have a loved one. By loved one I mean girlfriend, boyfriend, ect. Because you worry less. I mean, you may worry that you wont find someone, or that someone doesn’t care about you, but it’s easier that way. Me for instance, I just push people away. I can’t explain why I do it, but I end up doing it everytime. Anyway, you worry less. You have less to worry about when leaving. I mean, yeah you worry how your family will feel, but they usually move on eventually. As for friends, well mine would move on fine. I don’t think anyone cares about me that much. Most would just go “damn..I didn’t see it coming” or maybe cry for a week. Other then that, no one would care much. That bothers me, but then again, everything bothers me. It’s easier to leave. Less cares, thoughts, responsibilities, and stress.

I plan on getting really drunk tomorrow night and getting some shit off my mind.